HEH APAAN BGT BIKIN NANGIS ALAY MALEM-MALEM!
There’s one thing that I found out a long time ago, but still can’t truly master it:
Don’t expect the good things, expect the worst—because unexpected things happens all the time.
There are people who once cared, but now chose not to anymore, maybe because I was stupid enough to let go or maybe because they’re didn’t fight along with me, the reasons varies. But you guys are the reasons I become who I am today, so I owe you an appreciation.
There are these precious people from my past that managed to be truly meaningful and holds special place in my heart all along, and they are still special and would forever be irreplaceable, whom no matter how rare our quality time is, I love you guys.
There are new people who came to my life and accepts me for who I am, even if ‘who I am’ is a non-innocent, non-feminine, super loud, weird, an everyday pain in everyone’s arse (doubtedly) girl who don’t know what she wants. You are the best.
Life wasn’t meant to be perfect.
But my life is so much more worthy with you guys in it. with Fernanda, Fauzan, Devita, Boby, Sekar Hanun, Syifa, and Arrief Rahman – Watch on Path.
Jeje Syifa Anun Eep Bubis Depita Cumis. Makasih udah bikin nangis alay -_-
Happy birthday to me ♥︎ – View on Path.
Ceritanya birthday dinner dibikinin ican ❤️💋🍷🐟
Ini jam berapa?
Coba pegang perutnya.
(Permisi long-captioned post HAHA anw skip it if you don’t feel like thinking about life and that kind of heavy stuff. It’s just my random blabbering. You’ll skip it even if I don’t say this so lol)
So. It’s funny how life turns out.
One moment in the past that you significantly remembers why you thought that moment will last forever is now becoming the one moment in the past that you marked as how you realize nothing in the future might be as how you expect it now.
But you also realize, everything that happens gives you these cliche thoughts: ‘Everything happens for a reason’, ‘Experience teach you lessons’, ‘People are changing’, ‘Move on is not impossible’, ‘You’ll find love in the most unexpected ways’, and ‘Life goes on’, and as cliche as it gets those are still the truth.
The changes could be exciting. The ‘surprises’ could fuck your heart and feelings to pieces. And if you’re an ‘Honesty is the best policy’ person like me, you might also find that: Truth. Could. Hurt. As. Hell. And sometimes is better to be off and away not knowing anything (but it would fuckin bother your conscience. And omg why am I using a lot of ‘fucks’).
For me, whatever happens, you do what you can do, the best way you could do it. Like @taylorswift said, be nice to people. Leave good legacies. Be as truthful as possible. Be kind. You won’t do everything right, you’ll do stupid things and make stupid decisions, but you’ll make it.
Nothing is nor will be perfect along the way. But, for such an open book, a hopeless romantic, a boring cliched, and a (sometimes) blindly optimistic person, whom usually see what’s good in people and things and what happens instead of the negativity and the dark spots in their personality whatsoever (read: could be me), all the unexpected are just… Fun. In a way.
As long as you know where you stand and what you believe and how you basically do things, I guess life is fine.
(Though you don’t always know. Huft. That’s the problem with life you know, but even if life comes with a guidebook we would still have the same problem anyway.)
@shadshads maaci huhuhu :*
Next time yg bawa oleh2 dr UK gue deh :’)